In today's post I am sharing a playlist of mine that is my personal healer.
In all honesty I have been in a little funk this week, and I am trying my best to take care of myself and my needs. I did not want to leave my blog hanging, so I thought I would add something different!
For many of us, music is our savior. Now, maybe it's just my introvert self, but I typically enjoy car rides, or being cozy in bed listening to ballads and letting my mind wander. I know many who listen to some of my favorite songs and say "this sounds so sad." And yes, some of them are, but that doesn't mean I stop listening. To me, they are beautiful. There is something about acoustic piano that relaxes me. Songs with the most emotion tend to make my heart feel as if it is growing bigger as I listen. Sometimes, it isn't just the sound, it's the words.
I'm one of those guilty people who listens to a sad song when I am already feeling sad. It's not always because I want to be more sad, but I am searching for something that will express my feelings better than I am able to, in that moment.
Now let's talk about crying real quick-
Sometimes you just need a good cry, even if you don't know the reason you're crying.
My mom told me that as a child I once said,
Mommy, you know when you cry like a baby and then go, "ahh that felt good!"
Little Haley, I feel you.
Is an emotional release that we all need, yet many associate this release with being a weakness.
I personally struggle to cry in front of others. It is this coping mechanism where I immediately laugh or crack a smile and convince myself and others that I am okay. Those who have seen me cry know that I'm either really comfortable with you, or I'm really hurting. Even in counseling I hardly ever let a tear fall. If I need to, I hold it in until I leave. Sometimes I wish I could put those walls down in therapy, and it is something I am working on.
music creates a safe space for me to accept my feelings in privacy.
I am attaching my own playlist below to share. Not all music is for everyone, but I wanted to share some songs that I appreciate in tough times (especially in this funk), or when I'm just extra emotional and feel-y.
I'll turn to you as well!
help me build my playlist !
Any songs that are not on this list that I (may or may not) have heard that capture your feelings?
Comment below, hit the contact tab, or reach out over social media. I love exploring music that is new to me, that is special to you!
(and down the road I will share a finding confidence, or happy playlist as well.)
A Boston social work student, using writing for healing. Sharing the peaks and valleys of an empath's mental health journey.