I have noticed that I have been significantly happier for over 2 weeks now. In therapy when asked why I think I have been happier, I tried my best to refrain from just saying "my med adjustments have kicked in."
I knew the real answer was about my control. I shouldn't just give antidepressants the blue ribbon for making me happy. I have done plenty of this all on my own.
I become very hesitant when these phases of happiness come back to me, because I have been known to relapse shortly after. The reason I can tell I will not relapse this time, or as I used to, is because this is the longest I have gone with consistently making positive progress for myself.
Now, it is much easier to become more positive, and become more motivated if you do have a little boost (in my case, antidepressants.) The rest of the work, however, is on me. Antidepressants are not "happy pills" they do not make everything sunshine and rainbows. With depression, it is a chemical imbalance in your brain. Antidepressants help to balance everything, but there is still a load of work you have to do yourself.
In therapy, it was pointed out that I frequently feel the need to minimize the worth of my efforts. I am learning that I must celebrate or acknowledge every tiny accomplishment, because months ago my biggest task was to get out of bed.
So here are some little things I have done that have made a huge difference:
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