I am forcing myself to sit down and blog right now for 2 reasons:
I had 2 heart surgeries at age 13, and since then it has been a ride to get my heart-healthy life to a steady pace. 2 years ago was my last appointment at Boston Children's Hospital. It went well, and my doctor said he would see me in 2 years!
So 2 years later, here I am! I only had one "episode" of a racing heart a year ago in my p.e. class, but other than that I have been pretty kick-ass.
The anxiety started to kick in when I entered my appointment. No reason in particular, I just wanted the day to be over with so I could breathe and know I was okay, and it was all over now.
My mom was excellent therapy. We were both overtired and extreme goofballs. We shared many laughs together and of course, were the loudest ones in the waiting room. Oopsies.
During my appointment, we discussed my blood pressure medication that I had been taking for over 4 years to keep my heart at a safe rate. We were going to determine the necessity of remaining on the medication.
I mentioned the year I have had struggling with anxiety and depression. I learned that my heart medication is very safe, however it can be known to cause depression. My doctor also stated, however, that being on the med could help my anxiety because it will prevent symptoms of a racing heart triggered by anxiety.
Help my depression, or help my anxiety? My mom pointed out that my anxiety is every single day, and helping that would be more beneficial than eliminating my depression spells-which are more rare.
Going off the medication would also put me at a greater risk of ending up in the emergency room again. Besides the one episode in p.e. class, I have had zero issues.
We decided I will remain on the medication.
My mom was extremely pleased to learn that Wheelock College is just 5 min walking distance from my hospital, in case I were to have an issue with my heart. Of course, I feel good about that as well.
I was pleased that the day ended on a positive note, and it was refreshing to see how far my heart has come after all of the hell it had put me through growing up.
To add to the good vibes of the week-
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A Boston social work student, using writing for healing. Sharing the peaks and valleys of an empath's mental health journey.