Some of you high school students may be considering the military, or community college, or not going to college at all. That's okay. Some of you may have absolutely no idea what the hell you want to do with your life. That's okay too.
This post, in particular, is written for those who do want to go to college but are scared that they aren't "good enough" to get in.
So here's the thing:
School has never been my thing. I have always loved school, and done well at school, but it has never come easy to me. There are different types of intelligences, the same way there are different types of learners. It is easy to become blindsided by this when growing up, intelligence seems to revolve around the grades you receive on a test.
I have always been a nervous test-taker, and a distracted studier.
My brain does not absorb information like a sponge, and sometimes I will need things repeated for them to really click.
I wasn't made for the school atmosphere.
I wasn't made to sit at a desk. I was made to walk through the woods by myself, using my imagination, making connections, and relying on intuition. I loved writing and psychology, but I was rarely tested on those things.
I have talked to some highschool upperclassmen recently, who are all equally stressed and paranoid about college.
"I have to do well in sports, and get straight A's, and do well on the SAT, and go to work, and-"
"My SAT scores were shit, so I took the ACT and started crying 30 min before the start of the test. My anxiety gets so bad, I thought, "what if I get sick during the test?" A teacher came in and asked if I was okay and offered to let me take the test in her office."
"I probably won't be accepted to, but.."
"I literally can't do a presentation; how can I handle college?"
These are all statements I have recently heard from my high school friends, and family members. When I respond to those comments, I am not so much talking to them. I am talking to high school me.
This is what you need to know:
How do I know this?
Welp, I got accepted into 5 schools and I can assure you they didn't choose me entirely for my superb test scores and GPA.
I wish I could say, "don't worry", but honestly that never helped me. It is normal to worry, it is a stressful time with a lot of expectations. If you are applying to colleges, create a safety plan or a plan B, but also do not be fearful of taking a reach.
** There are very good schools with happy students that will accept students who work hard, care, but might not have had the "best" grades. **
You may not end up where you had wished in the first place, but things will work out.
Mental health issues are common among students, even though they are often invisible.
Many times colleges preach their "average GPA accepted" or "average test scores" but they do see beyond that and their website may not just come out and say it.
Your feelings do not define you.
I wish I could go back in time and shake myself and tell myself I was so much smarter than I believed.
My anxiety and depression have knocked me down and left me crawling, and I am a college student now able to say it is possible.
Your mental health never makes you "not good enough."
A Boston social work student, using writing for healing. Sharing the peaks and valleys of an empath's mental health journey.