To my beautiful mother:
To me, you are the woman who loves swedish fish, monkeys, and the song "Sugar" by Maroon 5. You dance to "Raise your Glass" by P!nk in the middle of our kitchen. If we hear you get on the phone with someone we sigh because we know we now have to wait an hour or more to talk to you. Sometimes I have to remind you that you don't have to cut up my food for me, and you laugh in embarrassment when you realize what you're doing.
Growing up with you:
You are my mother, and my built in best friend.
It isn't always this beautiful relationship. This year especially i know i have given you a hard time.
I find that when i am feeling poorly about myself, i take it out on the safest person-you. It isn't fair to you. I may not mean the things i say at times, and i may be too stubborn to own up to my faults in those moments. I'm sorry. What i do know, and you have made very clear..is that no matter how hard i attempt to push you away, even if i hurt you, you will always love me. Your love for your kids is unconditional, and i couldn't be more grateful to have a mother who never leaves.
I don't want this to become sappy, but this year I will leave for college. Knowing you, it will be hard for you to see your first bird leave the nest. I want to thank you for giving me the strength to choose my own path. You are the type of mother who will always want to keep her kids close, but at the same time i know you will accept wherever i end up in life as long as I am happy. You put our happiness before your own, and someday i will know the strength and amount of love it takes for a mother to do that.
I have grown in many ways, but i also see how much you have grown. (not with height, because we both know those days are over) hehe.
I have seen you bloom with confidence, and you carry a brighter light. I am incredibly happy that you have found someone who treats you as the princess you are. For that, i know i won't have to worry about you next year (that much) ;)
Happy Mother's Day, even though i spend every day appreciating you.
A Boston social work student, using writing for healing. Sharing the peaks and valleys of an empath's mental health journey.