Just a thought I had today, and wanted to share with you all:
I was in a good mood and thinking about my future. I was reflecting on goals I want to achieve, places I want to see, and things I want to see happen.
3 or 4 things come to mind for me before anything else. My 3-4 things may be completely different from yours and what you can't wait for in your future.
As I was fantasizing about when the time will come where all of these things will just fall into place I was thinking, "Damn, I need to remind myself how much these things mean to me so when I catch myself in a stuck point, I can remember my life is worth living."
So here's the thing with me:
1. I'm super good at coming up with coping strategies for crisis situations.
2. I'm terrible at remembering/finding the motivation to actually use those strategies in those moments.
So my plan..
I am going to make a list for myself and only myself of all the things I have to look forward to in my future. Then, I am going to write to myself. Yes, like "Dear Haley," and I am going to explain to myself why those things mean so much to me.
Yes, this sounds like a DORK plan, which is why I'm going to keep mine to myself. I take my mental health seriously; my silly plans have meaning for me. Sometimes I just need them.
From someone who has been in crisis, it is important and useful to have safety plans and things to turn to when you are feeling out of touch with yourself or life itself.
I get so scared and panicky in the moment that my mind jumps to negative thoughts and generalizing everything that is bad. I need to breathe, take a step back, remind myself any current craziness will pass, and that I have things to look forward to if I just hang in there.
It's just about making sure I remind myself that.
Here' s a look into the life of a living contradiction! Welcome Welcome! Just a college girl trying to create a peaceful life while managing irrational anxiousness. :-)